Despite my violent antics during training courses and my more mysterious side – I am now genuinely on the warpath! I’m in Trowbridge and although its hot here – the group I’m working with are a pleasant and genuine group of people – it has nothing to do with them. Someone, however, has crossed me tonight – a bully – and I am on the warpath!
I can feel my fingers tingling, and I know I won’t sleep tonight. Goodness knows what state I’ll be in by tommorrow morning. Unfortunately (or fortunately – however you see it) I can’t get to this person (people) right now as I’m not in Bristol. I have, however, called them and told them that I’m on my way and I’ll call on them tommorrow when I get back.
While I feel like letting rip, I think the COLD approach may be more effective. These days I tend to scream and shout a lot, causing a lot of fear and flurry. But I recall when I ran St. Elizabeth’s – no one could ever recall me screaming or shouting, but many recalled the coldness of my anger.
It was, as it is now (with my training) all an act.
But now it’s for real and it’s not the time for ranting – that’s what they’re expecting. Instead I’ll let them squirm – say little and stare a lot – and when they’ve backed themselves into a corner, I’ll go for the kill! These guys are way out of their depth!
Listen to me – Gangsta Bourne! Well may be I’m a bit of a scaredy cat – but I they don’t know that and I think I’m a far better actor than them – and this is my business!
And actually, I am angrier and more upset right now than I can recall for a long time.
It leads me on to who could be in danger. No-one, other than those involved, so most of you are safe. But if someone crossed my path and wouldn’t back of, there might be a war. I think about being in Belfast – most people, even during the Troubles – were probably safer there than they would be in most parts of the UK. But if you were in the wrong place at the wrong time …
When I go to war – sorry – looking for reconcilliation – tommorrow night, it has to be tactical. I also need to know what I require to withdraw. I can be silent and menacing, but they have to have let out too.
You can catch up with this thrilling next installment – if I’m still alive – tomorrow!
Personally, I hate this stuff, I hate the feeling that hangs around, and I just wish this stuff didn’t have to happen. It’s my business – violence – but but I wish it’d stop and people could just be left alone to get on with their lives.
Filed under: General, Violence, anticipated violence, hate, hatred, intimidation, neighbourhood problems, psychopathy, threats, Violence
